Note to self

When checking one's calendar, please take note of the 'swapped with X' days. It may mean you end up at work at 8:00 AM when you could've had a lie-in and wander over for 12:30 instead.

At least there's the lucky bit where I can do 4 1/2 hours of overtime instead of being sent home. However, there's the unlucky bit where this means a 13 hour day. Meh. That'll teach me.

Note to self

When checking one's calendar, please take note of the 'swapped with X' days. It may mean you end up at work at 8:00 AM when you could've had a lie-in and wander over for 12:30 instead.

At least there's the lucky bit where I can do 4 1/2 hours of overtime instead of being sent home. However, there's the unlucky bit where this means a 13 hour day. Meh. That'll teach me.

Irrationality

I can't have what I want. I have been poking at it and twisting it and tried turning it around and make it fit. I've tried breaking bits off to see if it fits, but the bits I'm breaking off are part of me and I decided that I would not do that because that way lies madness. It is not an option.

So this means I can't have what I want. Not the way I want it. Not the way it should be. And because I can't have this one big thing, my brain has now decided it doesn't want any of the little things either. Because it's not that big thing. And it's not fair that I can't have what I want, because others are getting what they want and I am neglected and no-one wants to do anything for me.

'scuse me. I'll be over there stomping my feet and jumping up and down and whining. Because one day that'll work and who knows, this might be that day.

EDIT: Before people start asking: my monkey. I'm not begrudging anyone anything. I am just tired and fed up and I really cannot deal with realising I can't have this big thing.

Irrationality

I can't have what I want. I have been poking at it and twisting it and tried turning it around and make it fit. I've tried breaking bits off to see if it fits, but the bits I'm breaking off are part of me and I decided that I would not do that because that way lies madness. It is not an option.

So this means I can't have what I want. Not the way I want it. Not the way it should be. And because I can't have this one big thing, my brain has now decided it doesn't want any of the little things either. Because it's not that big thing. And it's not fair that I can't have what I want, because others are getting what they want and I am neglected and no-one wants to do anything for me.

'scuse me. I'll be over there stomping my feet and jumping up and down and whining. Because one day that'll work and who knows, this might be that day.

EDIT: Before people start asking: my monkey. I'm not begrudging anyone anything. I am just tired and fed up and I really cannot deal with realising I can't have this big thing.