sessifet | Grargh *kermitflail*

So there's a whole lot of stuff I've been dealing with over the last two months, but the second most important thing^* has been my job.

See, less than two months ago, following my diagnosis of asthma, I ended up in a serious conversation with work about not being able to cope with the then current rota (four days on, four days off: four days, four early nights (6pm-4am), four late nights (10pm-8am)). I was told quite clearly there was no room to be put on permanent days. Also I had to provide a doctor's letter (which I paid £15 for) about my health circumstances, due to being off ill and the concern the company had about me fulfilling my role. Also, they couldn' really do anything (such as shift the rota around to accommodate me) without that letter. The agreement was that we were going to revisit my health situation in the first week of January (this conversation happened halfway through November).

It is now January 17th. I have not yet had this conversation. However, someone has been put onto permanent days now.

And it isn't me.

How did I find out that this had happened? By seeing the updated rota after I'd asked for one. Why did I ask for an updated rota? Well, because the idea was that we were all going to get a five week period of Mo-Fri 9-5 to allow for training and I needed to know when mine was so I knew to book for silly stuff like...oh, the weddings of several friends I'm rather fond of. Yeah, that idea has gone the way of the dodo. No more five week training period. We're all just on the adjusted rota (6pm-4am was replaced by 12pm-10pm) with our newest member of staff on permanent days. Said newest member of staff? Totally not the blue-eyed boy of higher management. Oh, not at all...

Not unexpectedly, this is making me feel very...I don't even know. Unappreciated? Like the company I work for isn't even trying to accommodate me? From a legal perspective, it looks like they've shot themselves in the foot (failure to make reasonable attempts to accommodate a legal disability). From an employee perspective, this company has now let me down in a major way twice now. Once by providing us with a manager who did not train us to do the job we were supposed to be doing, with no checks and balances on his performance, and second by giving the suddenly possible permanent day shift to someone else without giving me even the possibility of first refusal. Would I have gone for it? I don't know. I wasn't offered it to even consider!

One person on permanent days will allow for those on days during the week (three at this point: 9am-5pm, 8am-6pm, 12pm-10pm) to go on training when possible. Allegedly.

I was supposed to go on a training course in Wendover tomorrow, to learn more about Passport (or PPX as it should be termed) and SDH technology. That's not going to go ahead, probably because there is, unsurprisingly, no-one to cover the 6pm-10pm part of my 12pm-10pm shift. Even though we should now have one person on permanent days to allow for this. I'll leave you to think on that logic.

One person on permanent days is also to make sure there is cover for when we want holiday. Allegedly.

Look, I have two weddings this year. I am putting in my holiday requests for those two dates (a few others as well, but they're not weddings :)) and if I don't get them, people will be informed of my intention to quit. There is no way in hell I will miss them. But I can't trust this place not to change its mind even after it's given me my holidays. It changes its mind without even a token attempt at communication. It is, in fact, epically bad at communication in a manner I've hitherto only seen in large companies.

I'm stressed. I'm unhappy about the whole thing. I am quite close to smiling sweetly and going 'fuck you and the horse you rode in on, please' and walking out. I mean, I could spend my time more productively! Like finding a new job and doing DIY (and more gardening when it's warmer) in the meantime and stuff!

However, I feel that's giving up. So I probably won't quit my job tomorrow. Even though I kind of really want to right now.

azekeil is being a rock right now. It's good to know he's behind me should I go 'feel free to fuck just miles of off' at management.

Yes, I am looking elsewhere for jobs. I have a car. I am intelligent, a quick learner and the 'gnaaah, we haven't learnt anything new in a dog's age!' switch has recently been tripped.

Hit me.

^*I'm not quite okay with sharing the most important thing. Once I've got my brain around it, I'll probably talk about it at length.